YOUTUBE UNDERGROUND THANK YOU!!!!
Jun 7, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mhqv_DgJgDU

hey you guys welcome to Friday I cannot
believe we are at the end of our winging
I hope everybody is gonna have a blessed
wonderful weekend I on the other hand am
going to be working working working but
I love it I needed to come to the park
for a little bit just to get a little
bit downtime just co-co-co my grey shirt
he's like yeah let's just go I'm like
alright I'm gonna date that one and I'm
gonna run so that is what I am doing but
anyways I wanted to say thank you to
underground you are no YouTube
Underground let me see if I say her name
right YouTube Underground if you don't
know who she is she is a I believe a
review channel I didn't know of her
until today
so I was sent a link to her channel and
she had did a review on my video and at
first to be honest with you I was scared
because I was just thinking oh no review
oh this is gonna either go really good
or really bad but I wasn't sure which
one I was gonna expect so I went and I
watched it and I just want to say thank
you so much
you dissecting my message even brought
more clarity to my my words of what I
was trying to say and I am just so
thankful that you did that for me and
I'm so glad to hear that my message has
made such an impact that was truly my
goal I was not trying to make a video to
cast shade on anybody make coin get
subscribers that really wasn't my goal
had it been my goal I would have put
someone's name in the title or I would
have said the name out loud in my
channel but I didn't feel the need for
that
that wasn't my purpose and I didn't want
that to be the thing that came back that
said hey
you use so-and-so's name and you just
did it for views and you just did it to
make coin so I really wanted to make
sure that when I put the video out there
that my message is what was heard and I
believe it was I believe that really my
message really was truly heard and that
the message was clearly I'll say
understood although I feel like the
person that took the message in a
negative manner definitely responded out
of I guess taking it offensively or
being defensive it like I said was never
my intention to hurt anybody's feelings
but I wanted to share my feelings on it
and really where I was out and where I
was standing with the position that I
was in and being a friend so-called
friend having a friend doesn't always
mean that it's always you know you agree
with everything your friend does just
like a husband sometimes your husband
does something or sometimes the wife
does something that the opposite doesn't
agree with and that's you know when you
call them out and set them down say hey
you know what you're doing just it's not
good you know I think that what you're
doing maybe needs to change or whatever
but that is somebody that truly truly
truly cares and wants to see the best in
you and that's what I was trying to do
in my message was you know yeah someone
said well couldn't you have said the
message in private and yes I could have
but I feel if I would have the message
not only would have fallen on deaf ears
but also the purpose of letting others
know that they're not struggling alone
would have not been heard and so many
messages of private messages have come
to
I have come to me and has said I suffer
from Bengie Dean and everything that you
have said is everything that I go
through and I'm so happy to know that
I'm not alone
that was the purpose and why I made my
video and I feel that 99.99% of the
people took it as what I put out there
to be positive be an advocate for the
ones that do cut suffer with binge
eating disorder or any other disorder in
that manner
and so when I made the video I did it
not to be malicious not to be spiteful
or hateful or anything else in between I
made the video straight from my heart
and I see that my channel is growing and
it does touch my heart but it touches my
heart in a different way it touches my
heart and oh my gosh people truly they
heard my message and when I was watching
the video today of YouTube underground
and listening to what she had to say
about five minutes into the video of her
talking I just cried I cried because I
felt validated I felt like somebody
really truly understood what I was
trying to say and then reading her
comments touched me that much more
reading my comments touched me that much
more it just touched me and it still
touches me and I want to personally
thank you YouTube Underground for
hearing me and seeing how sincere I
really was being and how sincere I
really am about this topic and
I hope that Chantel goes and gets the
help she really needs I hope that you
know what if she suffers from a disorder
of eating that she gets it treated but
the way that I see her act doesn't tell
me that her Cara stiix are anything of a
binge eater that is my that is my
opinion my opinion not my diagnosis
because i'm not i cannot diagnose her or
undiagnosed her but i can say my opinion
is she does not have the cara stiix of
what a binge eater is and know every
binge eater is different in their own
differences but the major
characteristics of a binge eater all
kind of go under an umbrella and I'm
sorry but when you go and buy a tray and
you set your food up and you take
thumbnails and you set the food just so
everybody can see it
and you a crack you're having an orgasm
in your mouth as you're eating and
biting the food that to me is not the
Cara sticks of a binge eater I've
already explained what a binge eater
does and I think that I made it very
clear but I can guarantee you that's
nothing that a binge eater does we're
not even mentally there when we're doing
it you check out completely check out
because it's your numbing situation that
is your drug that is your number so when
you're numbing yourself you're not
thinking about putting on a show and
publicly you know publicly going out
there and talking about you know what it
is that you're eating you know because
you're not even tasting the food you
don't smell the food you're just like
shoving it in because it's you're
numbing tant tactics that's what you do
so anyways I just wanted to thank
everybody for all of your guys's
positiveness and the amazing messages
that I have been receiving are just been
so overwhelming but positively over
overwhelming I'm just loving it and I
can't thank you guys enough one other
thing I want to bring up really quick
cuz I've seen so many people and I
haven't mentioned it for a while so I
thought oh you know maybe I need to
bring everybody up kind of you know
since I've got such a new chart of
subscribers is what is this the Amy
wears on her head
and I laugh because you know at the very
beginning of me and my journey of where
I'm at with my stance of religion I
didn't know what it was either but this
is called a hijab I wear for religious
purposes my religion choice is Islam
however on my channel I will never
preach to you if you ask questions I
will answer you but you will never hear
me pushing my religion on you that is
not my job I am NOT here to judge you
I accept everybody and what they choose
to believe I you know I accept everybody
and the choices of love and everything
else I am just a carefree person I love
everybody I see the good in everybody
but I won't be played a fool either
there's a difference I will love and
accept everybody but if you try to play
me as a fool I will I very quietly
usually won't say much but I may bite a
little bit and that's when I made my
video the other day is I had to to bite
and you know I considered myself one of
shantel's supporters for a very long
time as I was still being very annoyed
by some of the videos that she was
putting out I still was supporting her
and I was on her channel and everything
in between but even as a friend
sometimes like I said you have to call
your friends out and say hey your
behavior just isn't it's not it's not
kicking honey you got to change you got
to make a change and sometimes people
can accept those criticisms and others
take it very offensively get upset and
unfortunately that's what she did and
I'm very sad about that I wish you would
have taken those words well you know I
wish that they would do what they needed
to do but unfortunately she just she
couldn't accept what I was saying and
you know she made a video that night
that was you know coming clean and
saying she never was even professionally
diagnosed with Abby didn't binge eating
disorder and I even found that kind of
you know
not shocking but I found that very sad
that here she's claimed hundreds of
videos over that she is a binge eater
and she has been professionally
diagnosed as one and now has claimed
that she has never been professionally
diagnosed with binge eating disorder it
is very sad and I take it very very very
very personal because me and many many
many many many others do suffer from
that disorder and it's not one that you
take lightly so anyways I just want to
say again thank you to everybody that
has joined my channel thank you for all
the great support and encouragement that
you have all passed to me I could not be
more overwhelmed gratefully that you
guys are so awesome and I just want to
continue to be an advocate for others
that suffer from not just binge eating
but you know having mental health issues
and physical health issues and
everything in between I'm not perfect I
have my own demons that I deal with I
have obviously a weight issue myself I
struggle with mental illness I struggle
with physical illnesses I struggle from
all of those things too and I am one to
say I will still be an advocate because
I'm a work in progress I have definitely
reached the point in my life where I
have wanted to change and I am going to
change and there is nothing in-between
that's not going to make me not want to
change but if I can help others along
the way I definitely will use my
platform any way possible to make those
things happen so anyways I'm gonna close
I gotta run to the store and go get some
sauce for my husband so I need to get
going but I hope everybody has a
wonderful wonderful weekend and I will
probably check in with you guys sometime
this weekend I would like to go live
maybe tomorrow no promises but it might
be also don't forget June giveaway is
the 28th or 29th I have to double check
please make sure you put your name in
the comments
slash giveaway so I can get your guys's
names in there and other than that I
hope you guys have the rest of your
evening and enjoy it love one another
and I will talk to you soon
bye-bye you guys
